I'm So Excited!!

Eliott's coming today after school. he's actually gonna skip his eighth hour so that he can get here sooner. I'm so friggin excited, though. i can't wait for him to come, though, seriously. and i know that he can't wait either. if he calls me at any point during the day, i'm just gonna answer my phone. josh wants to come and hang out for a while after school, he proposed ordering deli-more. i vote yes on that one. have i mentioned that im damn excited for him to come here?? i hope he speeds here sot hat he can pick me up from school. i really don't want to walk home, especially in these heels. But yeah...

i can't wait.

must run, bell's gonna ring.

Light A Fire Under Your Arse.

Sometimes you just gotta say "what the fuck?"

I love people. People are hilarious. Especially, apparently, Religious people! So Caleb read my blog from this morning and totes freaked on me it was bloody hilarious, you don't even know. here:

"i just read ur blog, and i must say my thoughts of you were much higher, now your interested in a 29 year old married man. :-/ that is kinda messed up. and also i just called u and u didn't answer. the more i learn about you the more it kind of frustrates me.

you know what, I was talking to you last night and you said "hold on ill call youright back" you didn't call me backi had to call you back. and now i read ur blog that you were talking tothat married guy. man i seriously don't want to talk to you anymore lets just leave it at that. goodbye

don't call me any more please, im just totally disgusted your into a married man. HE'S MARRIED why areyou calling a married man? or letting him call you? if you were married would you want ur husband to be calling a 18 year old girl and have him wanting to hang out with her? i want to vomit seriously. w/e though dig your own grave with your life. bye "

And then he just kept raving on and on and i was like, dude, let it the fuck go, it's not as huge as you think. But yeah... too funny.

Dennis is ill, poor thing. he woke up with a sore throat yesterday and it gradually got worse during the day, today he feels especially like ass. poor thing. but i got this from him:

"i miss you to baby and i wish i felt better this freakin sux i was coughing all night people kept calling me(i didnt care that you called me cause i answered when you called) but when other people did i just hung up but yea i like the new hair style i did so how are you doin baby xoxoxoxoxoXOXOXOXOXO"

too cute. i miss him. he should just come here so that i can take care of him.

daddy called a bit ago, said he was on his way to come get me thank jesus. i'm ready to go do something. and i want to get my hair done... it feels weird, because i let it dry and go all curly on its own and i used baby shampoo.... it feels really light. so anyway, off i go laughing on my fast camel.


i love you all. even you, Caleb.

Can i have that nook?

the answer i got in regards to that question was *shakes head* "i'm not done yet", it was pretty funny. She's sooo cute, my neice. Sometimes a little monster, but otherwise pretty damned cute. so the rest of my day was pretty interesting.
I don't even know what to say about most of it. My sister Tory has decided to buy a house across the street from her in-laws. which is bloody hilarious by itself, but then they totally got jacked on the price. thy shouldn't have paid any more than like 70,000 or so, but they ended up paying 99,000. The house is really small and still needs a bit of work done. it's hilarious, the entire situation.

so here i am, i've been up since 5.30 AM, watching aladdin for the third time. I would love to go back to sleep... i can't wait until i can go shower.

Last night i ended up talking to my bassist until like 12is or so, i don't remember, then talking to a 29 year old married man. he's gorgeous. and suprisingly enough, i quite like him. we sat on the phone for a while last night, and he sent me some photos. it was interesting, to say the least. but he's pretty great. i can't wait to hang about with him. he's moving to two rivers or whatever, so he'll be closer than he is now.

Also, Corey called me incredibly drunk last night, so that was fucking hilarious. he was going on and on about how the bar he wa at was practically a gay bar and how he didn't hit on any girls because he likes me and the girls who were there weren't as cute as me. he's adorable, really.

I love boys. sooo much more than girls. girls are just catty bitches. fuck girls.
anyhoo. i'm bored, i'm off to make something to snack on and watch Aladdin. lmfao. i love you all, xoxox.

I do yeahhh...

WOW. okay.

Yesterday i hung out with the band a little and attempted tothink up band names, and it didn't work, but we decided that if all else fails, no worrries, because we still love each other.

Then i went to coffee, and driving about, talking with Caleb. I had a suprising amount of fun, and i know that he did too. Or at least i hope he did. then i get this message from him on myspace:

"hey: i just wannna telll you, i don't think its a good idea that we hang out again, cuz i might start liking you and that won't work. Is that ok? I hope you understand "

and then another one...

"and: plz don't be mad cuz of this, i will still call u though :) only if u want "

I'm like, what the motherfuck??????

Boys. Who needs them?

So then my dad informs me that he won't be putting any Chrimbo lights out except for A FUCKING DEER AND A TREE!!!

*cries*

I called breanna, which perhaps i shouldn't have, because i cracked and asked if she wanted to come with to mandy's with me...it's not like i don't want her to, but i don't want to be blown off again, i mean she could just say no. but perhaps we'll mold our friendship yet again. Fuck i'm hungry. i just got finished looking at Corey's art, and you know what? he's pretty fucking good! i'm gonna show Bre tonight if we hang out. if not then i'll show someone else....like Dennis or someone. FUCK! why does this day have to start out so crappy???

I love Damien Rice. I really wish he wouldn't go into hiding.

Oh, the hell of it all.

So anyway. I don't even want to go into last night. It was just horrifying and...ugh!

Caleb makes me feel ten million times better. I called him first, for some weird reason (perhaps i secretly like him ? hahaha.) perhaps i should've called Dustin. But he likey was already settling down for beddy. Poor thing has to work darn early in the morning, because he has to commute to Santa barbara. Oh how i miss him.
Why hasn't Dennis called me back? i don't mean to go all psycho girl on his arse, but seriously, an entire 24 hours with no sign of him whatsoever. i don't know how many hilarious messages i left him, but i do know that there were quite a few and i would've called me back by now. Basically i just hope he's alrighty.
I know what would make me feel better (besides a hug from my brother, a smoke, and some good music in the car while i'm driving). A talk with Greyson. that boy is just too damn cute for his own good, and the wonderful thing about it is that he doesn't even know it.
I am, despite what happened at home, incredibly "thankful", lol, for having off tomorrow and the next day. At least i'll be able to sleep in tomorrow. And heaven knows i will! I skipped the first two hours today because i felt like if i didn't get more sleep i was just going to go to school, and like, sit there and cry or punch out a freshman or something. Or perhaps even both, and then where would i be? in bomber's office, that's where. I'd almost rather chew off a finger or two than go in there (i said almost).
Apparently Josh saw homeboy. That alarms the hell out of me. I don't even know how to decribe how ill that makes me. Yuck. What a mistake that was.
My filling has broken off of my tooth, and it hurts like a mutha. You don't even know. I'll need to call the dentist tonight or tomorrow...great.
Josh has this boyfriend who "has a big dick...i sucked it. kayli it's like 11 inches!" and this boy's so stupid he's buying josh an ipod! what the hell? where does he find these guys? why can't i find me a sugar daddy? Why AND I MEAN WHYYYYY!? is josh getting more booty than me?!?!?!


Now that's just fucked up.
off i go to ignore more homework, while laughing on my fast camel.
guten tag

This is the Strangest Life I've Ever Known.

I'm in an amazing mood this morning. I feel like perhaps, because i'm so damn good at it, i should indeed be a mum. But for now i'll settle for being the greatest Auntie Kayli in the history of the universe.
I put on a bunch of music and Riley and Ty and i just danced about maniacally for a couple hours.

Now Ty's down and i'm making some mac & cheese for Riley and i...
So anyway. I've left the computer like 80 million times and now i'm back, riley's sitting watching Meet The Robinsons again while eating yet another sucker...
I love it.

If you've never seen Meet the Robinsons, you should definitely make it a point to see it, because it's grrrreat! i really like the soundtrack, as well.
I don't know that i'll be playing any shows this weekend...i just don't really feel up to it. I feel like the band needs more practise....and a NAME! I found out that Lustra is indeed a real band. Which is crap. Not the band, but the fact that they are indeed a real band. In real life. It makes me sad, because they've got an awesome name.

do you realise?...

...that everyone you know someday will die? and instead of saying all of your goodbyes, let them know you realise that life goes fast, its hard to make the good things last...


ao anyway. here i am with my pally niggabish Joy, chillin and being fangirly. and talking to damn cute, albeit dumb, boys.

Thats all, really. Except that im damn excited about taking the COACH BUS to milwaukee, lol. HAHA madame. i feel like i should call her and just say "coach bus" and then hang up. that would be damn funny.

off i go then, away laughing on a fast camel. cheers, kitties.

Mmm Mmm Good!

We last hour were watching a video about myths or something like that and Caleb, you would've enjoyed it. He wa going on and on about all different types of religions and how really they're all just made from myth, and myth is the center of our culture, as is religion and economics, blah blah blah... no it was actually pretty interesting though, the man was hilarious. he compared a computer to God. Which that itself, in my opinion, it bloody hilarious. But his last name was Campbell, so we were saying that they should interrupt everything, i.e. him going on about religion, with him singing a little song about Campbell's Tomato Soup..."possibilities!" lmfao.

So that was a good time. And in Sociology in first hour we made up lists of the sexes. The grils and the boys got separated and we made up lists on:

• good things about boys
• bad things about boys
• good things about girls
• bad things about girls

so basically we just sat and complained about all the crap we ahve to do because we're girls, and also made fun of boys all hour! it was really great, a wonderful Friday morning activity. Great to get the juices flowing. LMFAO.

I just took a break in writing to translate something for Dennis in French just now, and it was terrible. It reminded me of just how crap i am at french.

I don't know if im finished with my Simon and Garfukel kick yet. I want to be, but then i listen to America and become addidcted yet again. I'm currently listening to Eleanor Put Your Boots On by Franz Ferdinand.

I like this song, but not as much as their angry songs, like Evil and a Heathen or YCHISMB. Or well that was easy, because i love that line that goes...

"well i used to lock myself in your bathroom, swallowing the codeine kept for your back, numb, so numb, i let your words, come and come..."

I LUUURVE THEM!! but, sadly, the bell will ring at any second. sadface, i know. i love you all.

yes, Caleb, you can call me later this weekend. Tonight would eb good.

English Tea in an Asian Cup

Indeed, my friends, i am currently, while listening to You Could Have It So Much Better by Franz, drinking English tea out of a cup which if i'm correcto came from China, which i brewed in a Japanese cast-iron pot which my sister sent me for my birthday. I feel really stupid. i should be drinking green tea! sigh...

My dad's back is so bad today that he finally cracked and went to a chiropractor, which is amazing. My dad neverever goes anywhere, let alone a doctor. So i'm likely staying home from coffee with Caleb (sounds like a daytime television series) because feck knows if i don't, dadl'' need me for some reason or another and then he'll have to get up or something. Or he'll just take it as a slap in the face and an "i don't bloody care that your back hurts, bitch, imonna do what i want. ohsnap" or something. Which sucks huge ballz, as i wanted to go tonight. It would've been fun. And tomorrow and the day after that and likely the day after as well, i shall be busy. Like a busy thing on to-do tablets.

This tea is beginning to get disgusting. I wish i had some green tea. Or some money to go and buy some green tea. Or a pally who would bring me some green tea.

I think i'm revisiting my Simon and Garfunkel kick. I can't stop listening to America, and this'll be the second time through on the list of S & G songs on my computer. I took a short Franz break, of course, which is slightly along the same lines of a cigarette break, but since it's too cold out currently, i'll settle for Franz.

Greyson is simply adorable. He posted a bulletin today of him describing the scene in what appeared to be some sort of computer room at his school... it was so awesome. It's what the rest of us are thinking, but he says it. I love people like that. Like Tony in my Intro to Law class... He makes these really strange noises and says the strangest things in the middle of class... they're like those little squeaky noises that you can make by putting your lip against your teeth and gently sucking in the air, the noise people make when they're usually at home, bored, and completely out of it.
It's not like anything else.

And so i shall go and be depressed all on my owney. guten abent.

i wonder if the dangerously cute boy will read this?

i'm pretty excited about going to coffee with him, he's much more interesting than most boys i've encountered.
I am currently listening to josh rave on as usual, as well as America by Simon and Garfunkel..."i said be careful his bowtie is really a camera...toss me a cigarette i think there's one in my raincoat. We smoked the last one an hour ago. ohhhmmmm... so i looked at the scenery, she read her magazine... the moon rose over an open field. Kathy im lost i sai though i knew she was sleeping..."

thats my favourite Simon and Garfunkel song. I love it. It's in Almost Famous, and every time it comes on i just totally get lost in it. So i didn't go to school right away this morning because i had quite a large headache, so i called myself in and took the first couple hours off. But then Dad came home because his back hurts, and he was like WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING STILL HOME!?!! i almost pissed myself, i was preactically dead when he screamed that up the stairs at me. Manohman.
Ben wants me to go with him for a while after school, but i totally don't want to. I so don't feel like being macked on by a hot guy. LOL. that didn't come out right, it sounded better in my head. Ich weis nicht... i guess i just don't like him as much as i used to. After he ... ah well.

Josh just asked me what i would do if i found out my dad had a girlfriend...i told him i'd kill my dad. which i would. I would murder him. But no worries, i know that he would never even think about anything of that sort...he loved my mum too much.
But seriously. I should probably go see what i missed in my first two classes, but... i'm far too lazy.
I am pretty pumped about coffee tonight, though. I'm not even sure if i'll be able to go, though, because of my dad. He's likely gonna ground me, or at least that's what josh thinks. i dunno....

all i know is that i'd love a cigarette.
So Mason... i don't even know. Josh just called him and i believe he answered, but...agh. He wants me to meet his girlfriends and whatnot, and that's really the only way for anything to go on between us. not sexually, but asfriends. he really...i dont even wanna talk about it. it's just stupid. Boys are so stupid. no offense or anything.
bell's gonna ring. i love you all, and to all a goodnight.

oh, one more thing. my horoscope said that my opinions are right and good and everything, but that no-one would listen to them today. thats sucks balls.

Notes from the Faghag

Okay so first i must say this:
things are not always as they seem. Remeber the guy i told you about the other day? the one that was practically a stalker? Yeah, he's bloody hot as hell!! mmmhmm, niggaz, you don't even know. He's damn persistent, as well. Not in the way that you're proabably thinking, ....well, okay, yeah.

But anyway. I didn't get really any sleep again last night. i think i got like two hours, tops. I skipped first hour.
In Miller's, in AP Lit and Comp, we're doing a goddamned two-essay Exam, and the exam had these crazy multiple choice questions that i had no idea what the hell i was talking about. i felt like a freakin fifth grader. i seriously need to expand my brain and take in all this shit i'm supposed to be learning in these classes.

Tonight i'm gonna go see P2 with joshuaaaa, so that should be a hoot. I havn't been to see a movie in forever, and movies with josh are always hilarious. no matter what. Why? because he's josh. You know you love me (Joshua's bitch ass) Yeah josh insists upon typing shit in my blogs
even though he has his own.

So we just had a goddamn fire drill.
WHY?!?!
i dont understand the concept of a fire drill in the middle of fucking winter. it makes me want to kill the principal. I was all like "who's idea was this!?" and she all looked at me all cunt-like and was like "MINE." i wanted to slap the ugly right off that bitch.

czech ya later, i've found a proxy to myspace.

the truth about porn.

so i finally have logged onto this mutha. anyhoo, i've been talking to a lot of boys on myspace and somehow all of them have my number. i blame Jack, personally, the mothafucka. he likely gave this guy "nathan" my number. okay, so Nathan is like this crazed freak of a guy, he's built like a godamn bodybuilder, and he has two girlfriends who live with him in a condo and do whatever he wants them to. it scares the fuck out of me.
On the other hand, i've been (willingly) talking to this guy Dennis, i call him Ace. he's really sweet, and just geeky enough to be liked by me. He can play guitar and all that shit, so there's a perk. Anyhoo, i dunno. I'm gonna fucking kill Dustin. Seriously!!

He's going out with five women at one time!!!! and one of them is named Cashmere!!!!! What in the fuck!? i don't even know what to say about that. it makes me want to rip off his beautiful extremities. Fucker.
But anyway... i need to find a fucking job. any suggestions?
I also need to get laid. I think I have sour pussy. (Joshua) Please, no suggestions there, thank you kindly.

God damn i want to kill josh sometimes. did y'all see what he wrote??? Jesus.

Anyway, i'll leave you all ont his note:

"kill me now, kill me now kill me now kill me now..."
cheers, kittens.